Almost Normal

I met with my surgeon yesterday to discuss my mammogram 2 weeks ago. There is some "stuff" on there that is probably scar tissue from the surgery and radiation damage. Nothing major...it is what it is. I will have another mammogram so that these images become my new baseline...my new normal...and from those new normal images, all other images will be compared.

I had my port removed...HUGE STEP!

I'm in a little pain. After the lidocaine wore off yesterday, it really began to hurt. The surgeon had done the surgery in office, just numbing the area. She asked if I wanted pain meds but I hate the way they make me feel so I said no. Why is it that after the office closes you always wish you had taken the prescription...just in case. I took some tylenol and ibuprofen. Helped a little but the jabbing and stinging pain would shoot right through. My bandages are bloody and I don't know if that is normal or not. I'm not suppose to remove the bandages for 2 days but it seems that I should change it to a clean one. I think I will anyway.

So there it is. It feels like I've reached the pinnacle and that I'm on my way to getting back to living. No more monthly appointments to flush the port. No more sticks in order to flush. The thoughts may always be lurking in the back of my mind but they won't consume me daily...waiting for the next appointment. Yea, I'll have appointment every three months but I won't be checking that calendar weekly to see when the next one is...I'll know that it's a month or two away and won't have to worry about it.

Now...if I can my energy back. I still tire easily. I want to nap daily. I don't feel like being out and about all day. Going to the store...well, one is enough. I can't wait to feel energized again. Of course...I am 43 so maybe I won't :)

Remember...
Jesus loves you and so do I